2.23.2009

Speculation moving backwards toward now

Monday morning I will shave.

Sunday evening I will collapse into a heap in bed, having gotten to know my peers at CCF a great deal more - hopefully, I will not be deathly ill.

Sunday morning I will 'wake up' after having slept maybe an hour or two, there will be an amazing breakfast and prayer time. It will be spectacular. I will probably cry. Hopefully, I will not be deathly ill.

Saturday into the wee hours, I will be playing cards and laughing a great deal - hopefully joining in spontaneous acts of awesome. Hopefully, I will not be deathly ill.

Saturday afternoon and I will eat pancakes. One of two pancake-related scenarios might occur. I hope not, though - because that would be embarrassing. Hopefully, I will not *get*deathly ill.

Saturday morning I will sing until my voice hurts a little, and probably form an uninformed opinion of the Gatlinburg speaker that will become refined as the weekend continues.

Friday night I will sing a bunch. It'll be cool.

Friday afternoon I'll sit in a van for a few hours with a bunch of awesome people and *probably* not get stir crazy.

Friday morning I will wake up later than I want to, but still end up at CCF in time to leave.

Thursday night I will be physically drained and spiritually charged, if this semester's DaaM trend continues. I will pack for the weekend. I will go sleep.

Thursday afternoon I will breeze through a Music Theory test and giggle the whole way home.

Thursday morning I will go to my classes and do most of the work for a group project. I will likely fall asleep during one of those classes, if not all of them.

Wednesday night I will sleep probably the most sound sleep I've had in a couple weeks, because I will no longer be anxious.

Wednesday afternoon I will sit in a familiar room in front of familiar faces, and I will be nervous. I will be praying regularly between now and then.

Wednesday morning I will wake up after only sleeping a couple hours. I will go about my day as normal, wondering what the rest of the day will hold. I will pray a lot for clarity and guidance. I will embark on a 40 day journey through the desert, relying on the strength and example of Christ to lead me safely through.

Tomorrow night I will take forever to sleep. I'll pray, and distract myself from my anxiety by playing guitar and piano.

Tomorrow afternoon I will go about as normal. I'll look forward to small groups and social engagements later that evening.

Tomorrow morning I will fall asleep during class. It'll be great.

Tonight I will try to predict things I can't possibly anticipate. I will laugh at my efforts and end up praying for God's Will to be done. I will have 1 John 4:4 on my mind. I will reflect on my day and be disappointed, but somehow more fulfilled than when I awoke.

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