In two days, two close friends are getting married to one another. I am excited for them. I am not excited about the people I will see there that I know. Not for petty reasons. I just haven't really *done* anything since the last time I saw any of them.
I've been sitting on my butt, growing. There isn't much to do without a job, with neighbors taking care of the yard work for my Mom, and with all my close friends either employed, far away, or not getting in touch with me. I do not absolve myself of guilt - I know I could contact *them* too... I just want to make sure the line between friend and intern has well and truly dissolved before I do that. The last time I hung out with someone in this category, it was like I was interning all over again. This wasn't completely unwelcome... just strange.
That's another thing that I haven't really come out and said before now - I'm actually quite disappointed that I wasn't offered a full-time job at CCF. My reasons are many. Many of them selfish, some of them just my own hurt and confusion - but they exist.
Another thing I haven't come out and said formally - I won't be attending Emmanuel in the fall. My reasons are many. Many of them selfish, some of them quite legitimate.
I would still like to minister somewhere - but again, the job opportunities aren't exactly rolling in.
I discovered that I lose weight when I have any degree of real stress in my life - which is why I've been gaining weight all summer. See, whether it was the rigors of interning, or even just the average stress of school - I never really gained any weight during my time at UGA. I even lost some at points. But right now... not so much.
There have been few bright spots to this summer thus far. Thankfully - those that are bright shine strongly.
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